Sunday, May 9, 2010

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There's a whole lot of singing that's never gonna be heard
Disappearing everyday without so much as a word somehow
Think I broke the wings off that little song bird
She's never gonna fly to the top of the world right now
Top of the world


i want to be someone great when i grow up.. i want to inspire and volunteer and help out in the world. i want to be known for something.. to leave my mark. To do something good for someone in need. I want to love and be loved. I want to show the world all that i can do and have it teach me the new possibilities. i want to learn the hard way and the easy way. i want to know all of my limits. i want to learn more. i want to discover hidden meanings, human nature and why we do the things we do. i want to learn about the physics in life i want to be everywhere yet nowhere to be found! i want to travel i want to be a mother one day and i want to be loved and feel love deeply. i want to know what it feels like when you have fallen but are still happy with where you are. i want to feel that i will always have someone there to help me pick up those shattered pieces. i want to collect hidden treasures and show them to the world. i want my art to speak to people... at least to someone. i want to portray a wave of emotion in my pieces. i want to be....

well i want to be me.

why do we pretend to be sleeping when someone comes in in the morning to whisper goodbye.... maybe they needed us to wake up and smile. maybe its silly to think so deeply into that

why is it so easy to hate and betray and destroy but sooo difficult to love renew and rejoice?

have you ever just seen someone on the street and connected with them? male female whatever... not physically or in some sexual desire kind of way but just really connected. and then you just continue walking without a word just a smile or a nod and then you both know inside that dang... that was a really great moment. ill remember it hopefully they will too...

i remember this one moment in washington. i was visiting my grandparents and bored inthe back seat of their car... a little bit homesick too.. so i was people watching out the window and i was purposely looking sad.until this man turns to look at me. n i was like "huh thats kinda cool" then our cars meet up again and he smiles really big. Gorgeous white pearly teeth and a warm smile. He is in my memories and he might not even know it. but that man made my day... and made a wonderful memory that i cherish. it gives my hope that people can still be good and create little moments like that :) its beautiful


So ive been thinking... why dont americans ask questions? why dont we rise up? why dont we think for ourselves?
why are we so quick to easily believe in something instead of looking up the facts? im not saying that i dont do this
myself. cus honestly i do. but i just wonder everyonce in awhile about it.. i mean .. have i really been raised that way
so much that i just dont question as much. i couldnt honestly tell you... but im not really complaining its just crazy. i
mean i can easily alter this all around. but i get lazy.. i shouldnt im still so very young! i need to thrive and look for the
best not just settle for the lies and fabrications people tell me. I adore coachie because she looks up all the facts
before she bases her opinion on it! i aspire to be like her in that way!

i also want to help! i want to go abroad and volunteer! do some more good! i want to help hands on but i have no
idea how to do it nor how to get started! if you know please tell me! <3